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2012-12-11 - 10:29 p.m. I'm struggling. I want to still push, I can't drop her. Part of me wonders if she doesn't want to try because she can't see exactly why it would end, or possibly she thinks I would leave. Meaning she would lack the control. It's probably over-thinking. C&J's wedding often made reference to not finding someone who you love entirely but someone who's bad points you can put up with. I don't know if I could with C, that's the thing you never really do, unless you try. The thing is I feel on a knife edge, I'm not sure how much more I can push for me, before potentially I can't step back and would have to cut loose. Not that I'm sure I can now. I want her to know these things, but I don't want to bother her. Maybe a distraction is the way forward.
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